Monday, February 26, 2018

My Monday | I Am 25 and Have No Idea What I Am Doing

Hello everyone!
Today is my birthday!
I am 25.
I am 25 years old and have no idea what I am doing.
Five years ago Erik and I were engaged. 
We created a five year plan.
Five things to accomplish in five years.

1 - Couches: It was the only piece of furniture we needed for our apartment.
2 - Puppy: We both desperately wanted a yellow lab puppy.
3 - House: We wanted to purchase our own home around our one year anniversary.
4 - School: Have Erik graduate with his Bachelor Degree.
5 - Baby: We wanted to have at least one kid. Maybe more.

And here we are almost five years later...
We got the couches.
They were our first big purchase together.
We got the yellow lab puppy.
Who would have known it would have been for only a few short years.
We got our house.
It was not by our first anniversary.
Erik is till working on his Bachelors Degree.
We thought he would graduate in 2017 at the latest.
We will be lucky if he graduates in 2019.
And a baby couldn't be farther from our radar. (Sorry mom and dad)
Life has not gone as expected.
It rarely does.

It's time to start a new five year plan but I have no idea where I want to be in five years.
It's such a strange feeling.
I have had my whole life planned out since I can remember.
I am not where I was "supposed" to be.
And I have no idea where I want to go.

So for my 25th year I will be trying to figure out what I want.
To find out what is next. 
To see what makes me happy.
I hope you are doing the same.

All my love,

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