Monday, February 19, 2018

My Monday | A Homebody With Anxiety Who Likes To Party

Hello everyone!
Erik and I were recently talking about how we are such homebodies.
We love our house a little too much...
While we were discussing it Erik said "You are a homebody but you have a desire to do things too."
I was like what?! I am the biggest homebody ever!
Erik then pointed out several things I have lined up over the next few months and I thought maybe I am not such a homebody after all?
We came up with this description "a homebody with anxiety who likes to party."
That is my title.
I love to make plans and dream big but it doesn't mean I don't get nervous about trying new things.
I tend to overthink every situation.
Here is a step by step of my emotional roller coaster ride of making plans.

I'll plan something and be really excited about it.
It will start getting closer and I will start wondering if this was a good idea.
The day of I will wonder why I did this to myself.
Traveling to the event my anxiety continues to grow.
I start thinking crazy things like "What if a meteor falls from the sky and lands directly on our house and I was not there to die with Erik..."
I will hate myself for putting me in this position.
I'll get to my destination and my anxiety is at an all time high.
I partake in my plans and have the best time ever.
I wonder what all the fuss was about.

Needless to say trying new things or going on new adventures is never easy for me.
The fear of missing out is greater than the fear of all my what if's.

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I hope that you don't hold yourself back.
You deserve to enjoy life.
Push yourself out of your comfort zone.
It won't be as bad as you think.
I promise!
What is something you have always wanted to do but have been too afraid to do?
I'd love to hear!

All my love,

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