Autumn Amelia

Hello everyone!

This past weekend I had a hard day...

There was no particular reason.

I just woke up to it.

All of these negative thoughts were running through my head. 

Telling me I wasn't enough.

Telling me I didn't deserve what I had.

Telling me that my goals were pointless.

After awhile Erik noticed I was a little off.

He asked me if everything was okay.

I didn't tell him what was wrong right away.

I honestly didn't know at first.

When I did, I didn't know how to explain it.

I also didn't want to.

It's hard to share your insecurities and hear them spoken out loud.

I finally told Erik what was going on.

He sat down with me and we talked it through.

He encouraged me and reminded me that I was loved.

But the thoughts still loomed.

We continued on with our day.

After awhile Erik came down stairs dressed and said "I am taking you out. All this work is not good for you."

I tried to resist, like I usually do, but I had already gotten most of my work done and we had no plans that evening. 

So, to the movies we went.

Erik treated me exceptionally well. 

He bought me expensive candy, opened every door for me and showered me with compliments.
It was exactly what I needed.

To turn my brain off and not worry about the world for a bit.

I have a hard time asking for help.

Any type of help.

Asking for favors.
Asking someone to hand me something.

Asking for help when I have bitten off more than I can chew.

I especially struggle when it's related to my mental health.

You can't do it alone.

You need the support and strength of others.
I am reminded of that often.
And I hope that you are too.
If not, here is your reminder.
It is not a weakness to need help.
It is a strength to be brave enough to ask for it.

All my love, 

Autumn